there is so many thing i wish i would have. i want to be a wife and have a wonderful life with my husband nevertheless life are not according to what i want ..it all about how we handle life that we never aspect what would happen.
There is a lots of number that i wish for that never gonna happen but i will never stop to pray for better life.
This current time i having difficulty to counter my massive problem which keep on coming to me like a heavy rain. i was crying all the way to cope and to be calm.in the same time mohd shah not in the shape of helping me at all.he keep himself very silent and try to push me away from him.i never felt the feeling being push away like i was stranger to him.i just couldn't get it. we being friend for few year and i always his side even tough he never try to share it with me.
the truth is i love him to much and in the same time we keep hurting each other in the odd manner.
my mom trying to be my savoir but i could not bear any of it.she trying to help me out but i could not received it because she was my mother and i don't want to cause her trouble.
i feel my world getting more tiny than ever.seem what I've done before infected me a lot. but there is no other power greater than Allah and Allah will grant my wish.
Ya Allah,
due every massive problem that occurred in my life, make me stronger to face it. give me a way to solve it.give me courage to survive this tremendous pain. if love not bound me to the other who love me...make me bound to them, if shah was so far away from me , make his heart more closer than before. make him love me than before.
life is always a winding road,
there is always a task to complete,
there is always lesson to be learn but have faith
Allah give us the test to let us learn the wonderful way to experience life risk in every choice you make for your life.
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